Sunday evening, 21.00. We finally come home from yet another birthday. March is a really busy month and I haven’t had a weekend to myself at all. I notice I’m tired once again, a state I’ve been in for a very long time now and it’s starting to annoy me. All I want to do is sit on my ass and stare at my PC or tablet screen, not really doing anything useful.
I come home like this every day after work. It’s a crazy job with lots to do and at the end of the day I’m completely exhausted and happy to go home. But then the actual real struggle starts: staying awake and making use of my evening. I’ve been considering going to the gym after work, mostly because people say you get energy back from working out. However due to the fact that I still live at home, by the time I get to the gym it’s 20.00 because dinner comes first. At 20.00 I really can’t be arsed to haul my ass to the gym for an hour, come home, shower and then essentially head straight to bed. I want to spend my evening in a more fun way, so that’s out of the question.
I’m trying really hard to not lie down on bed after I get home or after I have eaten. I know that if/when I do, I’ll immediatly fall asleep and won’t wake up for the next 40-60 minutes, and after I do I only feel more tired than I was before.
So yeah, right now I could really use some energy pills to keep me going during the evenings and my day off. I have set many goals for myself this year, both on and offline, and I’m not really getting to any of them due to feeling tired all the time.
I’ve tried adjusting my food habits, and it has helped a bit. For now I just want to get into a rythm for my evenings so that I can relax after work, but still get stuff done without feeling like I just want to head to bed the moment I get home.
I think I also really need to enforce not taking my tablet or phone to bed with me anymore. It keeps me up for too long, the light makes my brain think it’s not sleeping time yet and I notice my sleep quality is much better if I just lie down and attempt to fall asleep, instead of scrolling through whatever website or app for an hour before my eyes finally fall shut. Because when I get a good night’s sleep, I wake up after 8-8.5 hours on my own, feeling rested and ready to take on the day. Instead of waking up and feeling like I just want to go back to sleep again immediatly.