And I just can’t hide it…. Or not.

I’m not sure how I’m feeling lately. I finally found some fun in some games again. Got a PS4, which I wanted, and actually feel a bit better again IRL aswell. And yet something feels wrong. Seems like things are running a bit too smoothly, if you get what I mean.
Anyway today’s post is one I think many gamers can relate to: Too many games and too little time.
Exactly: None. I have so many games. Too many to play actually. There’s a huge pile of PS2 games that are barely touched sitting under my bed. I have Pokémon X and Kingdom Hearts 3D staring at me for the 3DS and there’s quite a list of games on my PC that I barely touched aswell. It’s quite logical. Throughout the year many shiny games come out. Not all of them are my cup of tea, thankfully, but enough are able to take my interest. Over the last year I bought AC 3 & 4, Tomb Raider, Rayman Legends, Ducktales Remastered, The Sims 3, Final Fantasy: A Realm Reborn, Civ 5 xpac and Warcraft III (yeah I know I’m a bit late with that last one, don’t judge). And these are only the PC games. I got a PS4 with Knack, I bought Pokémon X, Animal Crossing and Kingdom Hearts 3D for the 3DS and I really don’t want to start mentioning all the second hand games I bought for the PS2. 
It’s too many. Way too many. Especially considering I also still play WoW and added FFXIV to my MMO’s. I just can’t keep up. That’s why I can’t get excited for new games coming up. The Elder Scrolls Online? Meh. Wildstar? Not interested. All the games that are planned for the PS4? Only interested in FF15 and Kingdom Hearts 3. 
Hell the only game I would consider buying the coming months would be FF13: Lightning Returns, but it’s not coming out for the PS4 so I can’t even play it even if I would get it.
I used to play the shit out of Donkey Kong on my old Gameboy. They brought it back to the 3DS, shiny? Certainly. Will I buy it? No. Right now I feel like I’m wasting my money on games. I feel bad for not playing the games I already bought and I certainly don’t want to buy anything I would instantly regret. 
I wish I had the discipline to just make a gaming “schedule” and finally start playing all those games I bought. But I’m a scatterbrain and get distracted easily and default to my old habit: play WoW almost non stop. And I feel so bad about it. I have all these great games just dusting away… *sighs* Atleast I know I’m not the only one with these issues, but it just sucks. Maybe in this case it helps I’m not interested in any of the new games coming out, maybe it will boot my ass to start playing the games I already have more so I can actually finish them and then buy new games.
Too many games… TOO LITTLE TIME!

Alternate title: Why No MMO Is Good Enough.


I’ve been having a lot of discussions lately with people I’ve met through my games about the MMO’s we play. Some discussions have been constructive while others were just disheartening. They all boil down to the same thing though: No MMO out there seems to be good enough according to the people who actually play  them.

World of Warcraft is ofcourse bashing choice number one. Everyone likes to complain about “how it was so much better in Vanilla/TBC and how the game has only steadily been declining since then.” The arguements people use for this can differ quite a lot. Some say they miss the effort that went into the game at Vanilla times where you had to grind your way through everything and getting your Epic Riding mount actually still meant something. From others I hear that they miss the old talent system where you could completely break your class with picking the right talents and thus ensuring your OPness. Another point that people try to make is that the WoW community had gone to pieces. Apparently it’s more casual now with more “noobs” and “kids” that want free epics for every button they push. Up to a point I have to agree with this one, WoW has become more casual and it’s easier to get entry raid gear now than it has ever been.
My personal pet peeve with WoW has not much to do with the game itself but the whole attitude when it comes to Addons. Especially DPS meter Addons. They’re almost mandatory to see how you are performing relatively to others and thus taking the focus away from what’s actually important: killing the damn boss. Who cares if you’re below that Hunter? The boss is dead no? Unfortunately that’s not how it works in WoW and that’s also the major reason I feel more comfortable playing anything on say FFXIV or GW2 because you can’t see how you perform there. Succes is measured by bosses downed or events completed. Not by how high you are on a meter.

But WoW isn’t the only MMO that has it’s flaws. There are many many out there and they all have an aspect that apparently turns players off. There hasn’t been a single MMO that has been as succesful as WoW, even though many got hyped up to be. You see that some games start out great but that numbers decline as the novelty of the game wears out. People don’t know what they want and when they want it and we all want something different. So in a sense no MMO will ever be truly good enough to please the entire MMO community. And that’s fine.

Personally I’ve tried Neverwinter, Dragon’s Prophet, Rift, SWToR, GW2 and FFXIV. Out of all the games only GW2 and FFXIV have stuck around on my computer. I didn’t like the targeting system in Neverwinter and because I was unfamiliar with the Dungeons & Dragons franchise I didn’t really bond with the game as a whole. Dragon’s Prophet was just confusing to say the least. I dabbled in the beta for a few seconds but got out as fast as I could and never looked back.
I could see the potential of Rift although personally I still find the game to be confusing as hell and SWToR just isn’t my cup of tea. I absolutely love the Star Wars movies, but the game feels meh. It felt very clunky and just not that epic.
Almost all games felt like they missed something I had in WoW, which was my first and only MMO experience for a long time. So even I can’t escape complaining about games.

The last two MMO’s that have stuck around for me are FFXIV and GW2. Especially FFXIV I enjoy a lot next to WoW. I like the simplicity of the classes. There are no talent trees. When you’re a Gladiator you tank, when you’re a White Mage you heal and when you’re a Monk you DPS. Wanna switch things up? Switch your armor set/class and you can perform any role in the game on the same character. Sure it takes a while to get to that point but the idea is good. No fiddling about with talent trees, no reforging your gear. Hell you can use the same gear set for Scholar and White Mage and also the same gearset for Paladin and Warrior. I like this simplicity a lot, mix it in with the prettieness of the game and you have a mostly satisfied customer. I say mostly because I absolutely hate levelling professions in FFXIV. They’re tedious to level and take forever.

The other MMO that’s stuck around has been Guild Wars 2. I haven’t played it as much as I’ve wanted to but I still find it very enjoyable. You can pick whatever class you want and still be able to heal yourself. There aren’t really any set roles for anything and you’re very free to do what you want. Which is also a major downfall. I’m so used to doing instances that the complete lack of them in Guild Wars untill you’re level 40 or something just makes the game repetitive. Although the scenery is amazing and they try to keep the game interesting by making lots of events I just get bored. Bored from doing the same thing over and over again. Doing hearts, doing skillpoints, visiting vista’s and doing your personal story somewhere inbetween. Professions wise it’s kind of fun. You get to discover new recipes by combining existing materials which grant you lots of skillpoints and also levelling XP. But I think the tediousness of only open world questing/grinding/events makes me not play this game as much as I would’ve liked.

What the moral of the story is here is that there are always some negatives about a game. People expect games to please the majority. You can’t. Everyone has their own wishes when it comes to an MMO and if you ask someone to come up with a concept for one you will get 1000 different ideas and people will disagree on most of them.

Personally I try to enjoy my games as much as possible, with all their perfections and imperfections, and just avoid the things that I don’t like. I think this is the wisest attitude, one that I have seen people express more than once. If you don’t like an aspect of the game, then just not participate in it. And if that doesn’t cut it, maybe it’s time to move on to another game before frustrations take over and you might start to hate the game that you once so enjoyed.

Recently I’ve been playing a Holy Priest as main again. I haven’t picked this particular class up in a long, long time and had good reasons of doing so. Holy Priest has always had a love/hate relationship for me.

I absolutely love healing as the class. I’ve started healing as Holy way back in TBC when Circle of Healing had no cooldown and my first raiding guild brought three Holy Priests along to every raid because of the amazing raidhealing spam, mind you this was before the rise of Restoration Shaman and their damned Chain Heal. I’ve healed for a long time on my Priest, carried her over to WotLK and healed all the raids there up to Icecrown Citadel. Fast forward to Cataclysm, I raided a few times on my Priest then for fun and again played Holy. This was during the Dragon Soul times where I could just fuck about in LFR and still do comparatively well as Holy compared to other Healers. They also introduced the new way of Holy healing then where you had to pick a “Chakra” that would decide whether you would be good at single target healing or at tank healing. I fiddled around with it, found it to be fun but since my Priest was Horde and I was maining as Alliance I didn’t pursue it any further.

Now I’m back on Holy Priest as my main once again and I still love the class. I have amazing raidhealing potential and I notice every gear upgrade that I get my hands on. However… I fall behind. Compared to our other healers I feel like I’m the weakest link of the raid. On meters they just jump ahead in every aspect. I oom during most fights, not probematically though since I always time my Shadowfiend well, heal my ass off while trying to stay alive myself and it just doesn’t seem to be enough to keep up with the rest on the healing meters.
And that’s exactly the reason why I hate meters so much. I feel like I’m doing much more/better healing than I’m actually doing. I save people from deaths, use my raidcooldowns in the best possible situations and in general try to get the most healing out of my character that I can. “But dear girl, why worry about meters when you feel like you’re doing fine?” Well as some of you may know, meters are everything when it comes to deciding who to take to what raidboss and when. As raid you rather have people that do consistantly well on the meters because you know they can put out a good amount of healing. So when you fall behind on the meters it’s a bad sign.

Even the DK Tank surpasses me on the Healing meters 🙁 This was on Paragons…

I’ve tried to think of reasons why I’m falling behind as Holy so much. The specc has gotten some love from Blizzard and is in the best position of the entire expansion so I don’t really understand why I’m not doing well. I have researched a bit, looking at what other Priesthealers have to say about this subject and a lot of it boils down to the amazing 2set (and 4set) bonus that is on the latest tier. I don’t have that. In practice this means that I lack +100% healing on both my Greater Heal and Prayer of Healing when I have two stacks of Serendipity. This is a lot. You can’t even begin to imagine how much healing power I miss on those spells. Doing double healing? YES PLEASE. But no I’m missing out on that.
Another reason could be that when it comes to gear I’m a bit behind on our other healers. They’re almost full flex-geared while I’m still running around with some Timeless Isle and Throne of Thunder items. It holds me back. I notice immediatly when I get an upgrade on my gear because my numbers go up. Furthermore they all have their respective set bonuses (be it only 2 or 2 and 4) while I lack on this part. Maybe when I get up to par gearwise I’ll get up to par healing wise. Who knows?
The last reason could be that I’m just really sucky on my Priest and doing everything wrong, which I doubt. I’ve checked some sites and I have the right talents and glyphs and seem to be using my cooldowns well. My gear is properly enchanted and gemmed and I even managed to get the 16.65% Haste breakpoint while still keeping more than enough Spirit and Mastery. I just don’t know and it’s frustrating me.

And the only reason it is frustrating me is because I can see my “performance”. If I had no idea about what number I was pulling healing wise I’d probably be much more relaxed playing the game, like I am in FFXIV where there are no meters and you succeed as healer when you can keep everyone alive. It doesn’t matter there as much as it matters in WoW and I sometimes wish that they would remove all sorts of damage and healing meters from WoW and just let us play the game and feel succesful when we down a boss and not when we’re number one on the meters while doing so.

Hey everyone!

It’s been a while since I got the opportunity to blog. It’s been a very stressful month for me and I really couldn’t set my head to writing about it, I felt really down.

There are numerous things going on in my real life that I don’t specifically want to get into right now but let’s just say that my mood has been bad since early October and over the past few months it hasn’t really improved. I have to deal with a lot of stress from my internship and from not being able to see the man I love. It’s driving me insane and it’s making me really sad. Hence the lack of posting happy/usefull posts on here.

The reason I’m posting now is that a lot has happened in the 4-5 weeks I was away from here. I rerolled on WoW (again), hoping that this will be the last time tho, picked up Guild Wars 2 again and most importantly I came into the posession of a Playstation 4, fulfilling one of my wishes of owning one.

First off I’d like to introduce you to Sarelly, my priest. There was a lack of healers for my guild and I got tired of playing a Hunter pretty fast. Maybe I’ve played/levelled too many I don’t know but I settled onto a Holy Priest and am raiding on her now, and enjoying it deeply. To the left you see her in her old transmog, but she looks a bit different now.
I managed to get my hands on my old T6 set which I owned way back in TBC and am quite happy to use it as transmog for a while. Being back on a Holy priest has really lifted my spirits, I have a history of being Holy in TBC and WotLK and I basically quit being a healer since I got quite pressured by the last guild I was in to conform to their rules so I left my Priest behind, not wanting to play it anymore because of bad memories.
The cool thing I get to do on this Priest now is not only raid but I also stream the raids, which are currently only Flex. The raidtimes of my guild are Wednesday and Sunday from 20.00 till 23.00 and I usually have my stream on so if you feel like watching a tiny nubish guild raid you can hope over to: http://twitch.tv/sandrian and follow our progress!

Secondly I picked up Guild Wars 2 again. I’m not playing it much at the moment, just trying to squeeze in moments of playing it without me burning out on it (again). I’ve made a new character who is a Norn Thief and am playing with a few friends I met in my WoW guild and so far I’m having fun. We’re doing the quests and all of the exploring together and it relaxes me.

My tiny Miqo’te is also still going strong on FFXIV. I’m now a level 43 Monk and I plan to get her to 50 over the coming few weeks. Due to all my levelling in WoW, and gearing, and obtaining a PS4 I realized that FFXIV isn’t that high on my priority list anymore. I got the rank 4 veteran rewards for buying more gametime but I think I might take a hiatus once that runs out, which ironically should be around the time the Diablo III expansion comes out.

As for my PS4… I am absolutely in love with the system. I only have one game so far, Knack, but I’m enjoying it immensely. I’m trying to get all the trophies, achievement whore that I am, and am currently on 20/42. If you’re really fanatic (which I am) you can download an app for your iPhone or Android phone and play a minigame that’s similar to Candy Crush/Bejeweled that lets you win items you can send to your Knack game on the PS4! It’s really convenient and it’s gotten me to the point where I have almost all gadgets and am about to complete my first improved Knack form. Yay!

So that’s kind of what I’m up to. I am playing a bit more than what’s mentioned above but these are the most important things at the moment. If you’re really curious about what I’m playing, I made a little picture of all the games I’m currently investing time in. The only one that is lacking is World of Warcraft because I couldn’t find the box 🙁

As you can see. Many things to play! And honestly not that much time to play them. I’ll be busy for a while atleast!