It’s Dark Outside

Wintertime. I can’t say it’s my favourite time of the year, but as long as it’s not pouring rain (which it usually does here in the Netherlands) I like the quietness that seems to come with the days getting shorter.
People are cold, myself included, and are less likely to hang around on the streets. Living in a relatively big city with frequent trips to our capital I feel safer outside when it’s cold. There is less people around, less traffic. Everyone likes to stay indoors and only goes out when necessary. Normally I really like the buzz of the big city but it can also be very intimidating when you have to travel alone and late at night as a tiny woman.

The other thing I like about the weather turning cold and bad is that I feel less guilty about spending my times inside gaming. When it’s summer and the sun is shining I always tend to feel restless. I feel the need to go outside and do something because it’s sunny and warm. Now I don’t feel that way and I’m perfectly comfortable spending my time behind either my PC, PS4 or 3DS.

I’m still working on getting a job. The hunt seems to be endless, but I’m not letting myself be discouraged. Getting depressed over it only makes me suffer so I try to stay as positive as I can be. I socialize with a lot of people, on and offline, and try to spend my time as good as possible. I’ve started to clean out our very cluttered attic and keep myself busy with working out, watching shows and playing games. Oh and household chores…
I still need to give myself a huge kick in the butt on some points though. For the past 2 months I have been staring at my almost finished Master’s Thesis and time is running out. My father expects to see a diploma soon and the only reason I haven’t finished yet is because I just can’t seem to get started on it properly. A few weeks ago I called in a friends’ help to finish up my analysis part and ever since I’ve just been staring at the unfinished product. In theory all I need to do is just write the final piece of the damn paper, but I feel superblocked whenever I look at it. It NEEDS to be done and I’m kicking myself in the butt very hard but stuff just isn’t happening.
So yeah that’s how my personal life looks like right now…

Another thing that I really want to start up again is streaming games. I streamed some WoW on my Priest when I was raiding in Mists of Pandaria and frankly I want to start streaming again. Ideally I want to get this set up before Warlords of Draenor launches so I can let people see the levelling process with some giggles. I had an old Twitch overlay for my UI which I unfortunately can’t use anymore so I should get my hands on a new one. Next to this I won’t be streaming with webcam on, mostly because I don’t have one. I still hope I will attract some viewers because sharing my games with people is something I enjoy very much.
I’m not really good with editing anything though so I probably won’t start with a Youtube channel. I’ll try to have regular streams, especially on future raid nights, and I hope I can set up my Twitch channel in a proper way for that. (If anyone is still reading, some help or tips are very much appreciated!)

For now I’m going to retreat back into World of Warcraft to prepare for the launch of Warlords and test some Heroes of the Storm since I managed to get into the technical Alpha (thanks Blizzard).

One thought on “It’s Dark Outside

  1. My Master's Thesis took me three years. Funny thing is, it only ended up being 80 pages – close to the bare minimum. Keep at it! You'll be happy when you have your MA/MS in hand. It's how I got my university teaching job.

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